Well, Dec 25th has come and gone, now everyone's counting down to Dec 31st 2008. Its with a mix of dismay and excitement that i realise school's gonna start in 6 days' time!! Dismay coz aiyah, no more sleeping beyond 5 am anymore; now hv to build back the discipline of early morning routines... excitement becoz hey, my boss is still my boss, and God's shown me such a challenging vision for the year ahead for the school.. my kids couldn't understand why on earth i would hesitate to be promoted to Principal of Mighty Kids, ha ha, guess that's the initial reaction of most. When my boss first sounded to me about 4 months ago the possibility that she may move on to other things in her life, i quite dreaded her suggestion that i shld take over. Not that i m not ready; and i know i can do the job; so its not a question of ability or readiness. As always its a question of heart - do i want to? And honestly i had to tell God, Lord, i dont want to lead,i just want to follow. Just as my boss candidly admits she feels she's so comfortably settled into a 'rut'; we call it comfort zone... so likewise i confess i m also reluctant to assume new tings, becoz my 'rut' is so comfy!After all, i've been with her from the time the kindy was set up 8 yrs ago, and praise God for His favor on the school that we hv come to a stage where growth has steadied throughout these years. Yet i didn't wanna be disobedient, if really God wants to move me up to other things, well, who am i to say no?? So i simply left it to God,and told Him, if He wanted to promote me, He would hv to give me the passion to head the school; well, He didn't burn my heart, but He did burn my eyes with vision instead of better things are coming, i know... coz i saw 2009 as a year of spiritual liberation - its Mighty Kids 7th year of operation, and biblically, 7 is freedom! How exciting.. I know this is the year we need to start using those wonderful fabulous wings God hs already given us to fly for Him! For those who hope in the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall fly on wings of eagles; they shall run and not be weary, walk and not faint... Wat a promise!
So, despite all the gloom and the doom-sayers of 2009,yes, i m excited. The whole world has been bombarded with how things are just gonna get worse and worse in the coming year. There is such a burden of heaviness in the air, despite all the surface festivities of Christmas and New Year; i tink they call it 'window-dressing'. But the outlook is being trumpeted daily in the news reports of lay-offs, no/less bonus, frozen salaries..and that's just the economics; wars and unrest are still being fought all over the world; just look at the mess our neighbour Thailand is in, and we still read about humans killing humans in Palestine. So you ask me wat's there to look forward to in 2009 except more bad news? I guess if i look with human eyes, there really is nothing beautiful on the horizon. But if i look with the spiritual eyes of the heart, with a confidence that the God who created all things good (and that includes man) in the beginning, the God who knows everyone by name (tho some dont even want to know His name), the God with whom ALL things are possible, the God who says I AM the same, yesterday, today and forever... if i focus on that God who is King of kings and Lord of lords, then i see different things... i see that in the midst of bad, evil and suffering, God can turn it all around in His own time, in His own way to make it good. Dont ask me how or when, its enuf for me that He can becoz He says so, and God never lies. (only man do that) He came to dispel all darkness, by virtue that He is the light of the world. So why shld i wallow in fear and worry abt this, that and the other ting hitting me? Ok, if bad times are coming, so be it, my God is still good!Watever times it may be....
I will lift up my eyes to the hills - from whence comes my help? My help comes from the Lord, who made the heaven and earth... Psalm 121:1-2 .. for God promised:
When you pass thru the waters, I will be with you, and thru the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk thru the fire, you shall not be burned, nor shall the flame scorch you... for I am the Lord, your God... Isaiah 43:2
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