It was Thaipusam holiday; i thot for once everyone would be at home and we would be one big happy family. Well, we were all at home for the better part of the morning, but each was in our own bed, in our own rooms. As usual i was the earliest one up, and even after finishing my morning time with God at leisure (unlike work days, when i hv to keep a more watchful eye on the clock), all of the 3 kids were still zzzzzz-ing in their own dreamland. Then one by one, they got up.... and left.
No.1 princess says good morning and good bye, dashing off in her car for a whole day out with boyfren at the mall, no. 2 princess gets up later, and announces she's off after lunch to shop for a b-day present for a fren, attend his tea party and won't be back for dinner, as her boy-boy's family has invited her to go vegetarian. No. 3 son gets up last and after a lightning mandi kerbau, runs off to the mall with his frens... so at 1 pm, old fuddy duddy mama is left in a big empty house, on a public holiday, all by herself... and i tink, gee, 'empty-nest' syndrome already started - so much for family together-ness!!
And then i start tinking, what would i be w/out the kids , after having had them around for so long? How do i define myself, my life? If someone were to ask, what are you/ wat could you be, wat's your answer? I tink many of us would simply say I could be... a millionaire, artist, mother, wife, ... our first reaction would be to tink of an occupation of some sort as a definition of who we are/could be. Take away my kids, take away my job, take away church, social work, what am i, really? A sum total of a body, spirit, soul; a bundle of emotions, thots, experiences. Is that all a human be-ing is? But God says I m fearfully and wonderfully made in HIS image. And surely be-ing a human made in God's image postulates that my life must hv meaning and purpose.... so i m not 'just' a mother, a teacher, a writer, Chinese, Malaysian, female, widow... watever labels we create to define our 'being'.
I was re-reading this book "The Life That God Blesses" and the writer was pointing out the standard practise of companies having mission statements to define wat the business is all about, but he questioned how many of us actually have sat down to define our life's mission - what we are all about ? And that started me thinking; it took me quite a while to think thru actually; first to pray and then to write down the things that came to my mind. I guess we could call it simply goal-setting; but it's more than that really. Its getting to grips with things of the heart; things that really matter to God about what Christine Lai Sai Koon can be in His eyes... i finally came up with this personal definition:
My life mission is
To glorify the Lord my God and live a life worthy of Him thru:
1. Focusing on the things unseen and not on the things seen by -
a) worshipping the Lord for who He is, not for what He can do for me
b) seeing the big picture in all circumstances as He sees it, not sweating the small stuff
c) total dependence on His Holy Spirit power in all situations at all times
2. Upholding HIs truth in love at all times by -
a) daily renewing of my mind in His Word (right thinking)
b) practical application of the absolute principles of His truth in all my deeds (right doing)
c) declaring and defending HIs truth in all that i say (right speech)
3. Responsible stewardship of all that He has blessed me with in ministry unto Him by -
a) utilizing my energy, skills, time, and talent to serve others, for the love of Christ
b) managing my financial resources with prudence, cheerfully obeying every prompting to give unto His Kingdom
c) actively fulfilling the Great Commission in:
i) faithfully consistently seizing every divine opportunity to be a witness in word and deed to proclaim the good news to all He brings into my path
ii) building up the body of Christ without regard to denomination or discrimination.
Thats as complete a statement as i can come up with to define my life purpose for now. God has 'infiltrated' my life to such an extent i cannot tink of a better reason for living than to live it out all for Him; becoz He died for me to give me this abundant life. And so i told Him after this was done, Lord, all i hv left on this earth, however many, however few years it is, of this life, help me to live it out in a way that's pleasing unto You. At the end of the day, that's all that really matters.... the life that pleases God is a blessed life. So if i can be a blessing everyday , then surely i m the more already blessed!!
...For of Him and through Him and to Him are all things, to whom be glory forever..Romans 11:36
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