Blessings... from generation to generation

Today i m basking in reflected glory as i admire my no. 2 girl pix shot featured in Star Youth, on the e-shopping review blog that she operates under Diaryofane-shopaholic.blogspot.com...Hai, she looked so sweeeeet... and my heart is so full of gratitude for a God who blesses me soooo much even unto my next generation; i m certain their daddy up in heaven is smiling like i am!

For not only my no. 2, but no. 1 princess is already seeing her work in print, altho its a small beginning, she has had some poems and just recently another short story published in Quill, one of the MPH mags.

To think when i was their age, i used to harbor ambitions abt being a writer... 20 yrs down the line, whilst i m still dreaming my old dreams, my daughters are seeing their dreams already happening! I like to tink it's all my genes being passed down, of coz. But i know deep in my heart, it's all the work of God, a wonderful awesome awesome God who holds their future in His mighty hands and has got all sorts of plans to prosper and never harm them.... it gives me such assurance and hope to know this; that all i gotta do is love my God, creator of heaven and earth, and this God who is our Abba Father will surely bless the kids He gave me in the 1st place - when i learn to let go and let Him work in their lives...

Thats always the difficult part; which parent doesn't want the best for their off spring? Which parent hasn't tried to do the best for his/her child/ren - we nag, lecture, pressure (and call it advise) our kids with our own expectations abt how they shld live their lives, which parent hasn't worried day and nite abt how their precious kids are gonna turn out, tear hair when we encounter rebellious , closed-up hearts and ears which refuse to listen? We groan and moan and wring our hands, and try even harder ; we work hard to earn lots of money to provide them a house, a car, to make sure they get the best education, get the best earning job, marry a 'good' person and live a 'nice' life... but wat if God has other (usually more exciting) plans for them??

But really, actually, all that worrying does no good one iota. I learnt early on when i was struggling as a widowed mom that i can't handle it all, so one day when i had done crying for the umpteenth time wondering how on earth to be a 'father' to my young son, i just gave up, admitted defeat... and gave it all away to God. I just as good as told Him, look, You gave these precious kids to me, and now i honestly dunno how to take care of them, since there's supposed to be two of us, me and the dad, now there's only one of me; whilst dad is partying in heaven, i can't do this alone... i give them back to You, as their Abba Father who loves them more than i ever can, who surely is more than capable to watch over them, for You are the God who never slumbers nor sleeps, who sees them in their coming in and going out.. In the words of the Bible, i just cast all my cares upon Him, and truly in accordance to His promise, He sustained and continues to sustain me.
So instead of living my dreams thru my kids, i bite my tongue and refrain from telling them to.... take this course, apply for this job, do it mama's way... its so easy to plant our desires on our children; but i have to learn my desires don't matter; at the end of the day, God's plans outbeat mine anytime; they will reach their best potential when they find their destiny in Him.

The moment i committed 'my' kids back to Him, the release came into my heart. Of coz i m human, and there are still times when i tear hair as a mom. But such times, i purposefully still myself to pray and say again that prayer, Lord, they are Yours, i give them back to You. Forgive me that i keep forgetting it... And the peace washes over the heart again, with a certainty that He knows and in all things He works for good for those who love Him according to His purpose ; even when my eyes can't see any good! Truly as Jesus promised, when we come to Him all weary and laden, He will give us rest.

I m so glad i dont have to carry the burden of looking after the kids by myself, that God actually carries them for me, when i surrender to Him. And i can only whisper never ending thanks for all His blessings upon my family. As i remind the kids, we are not rich in $$ terms, but in Christ we already have treasures beyond earthly value! At times my heart is so full when i look at them over the dinner table, and realise how they have grown from little kids to teens and now the 2 girls blossoming into womanhood, and already God is blessing them with so much talent.... i m excited for them, knowing as they learn to walk with the God of their father and mother, their lives will always be a blessed adventure... truly the blessings of God are from generation to generation without end....

hmmmm, now i m wondering about the boy.... he hasn't shown any bright sparks yet , but he does have rather longish fingers... perhaps a Picasso or Richard Clayderman in the making???!